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Archive for August, 2010

So, lately I have gotten very much into digital scrapbooking & photography. I have always loved photography, but never thought I could be any good at it.  

A bit of background: One of my mother’s sisters is an artist who could do all sorts of cool things from jewelry making to photography. I pretty much worshipped her when I was little. She & her sister would visit us maybe twice a year & I would get to model for her. This was back before self-consciousness set in. Now, I feel so embarrassed when I get my picture taken. Anyway, it was accepted that the rest of the family was not talented like her & growing up I thought that it was all or nothing. I also had some bad art class experiences in school, so I came to believe art was not for me.

I loved writing from first grade on & it grew into a passion when I was a teenager. I know it will always be my first love. However, I always felt like I wanted to be talented like my aunt. I could never draw a straight line & I was terrible with our 35mm camera, which neither my mom or I understood. When it broke I occasionally would buy a disposable one. We have tons of pictures of our cats, but pretty much nothing else for many, many years.

Then, a couple of years ago I bought a new phone. Nothing too fancy, but it has a camera & I got really excited to use it. It took me a couple of  months to figure it out, but I loved it. I realized I could be good at it. Not as a vocation or anything, but as something to express myself with, something to have fun with. Right away I knew I wanted a “real” camera. This spring I bought my baby, a red Canon Powershot. I know there are even more awesome cameras & in my wildest dreams I would wish for one, but compared to my camera phone it seems super fancy! I am still figuring it out, which I actually enjoy & I am loving it! 🙂

In March, I found an old-ish disposable camera. Seriously, I have no idea how old it was… at least 3-4 years. My my mom & I took a walk & I took pictures with my camera phone & the disposable one. I was happily surprised to see I was vastly improved from shots I had taken on another camera about 10 years ago. I honestly can’t believe I improved.

The point of all of my blather 🙂 is to say art is obviously very subjective & if it you want to do something artistic & it makes YOU happy, you definitely should! I even draw sometimes, wiggly lines & all.

Some photos (if they show up wonky, I apologize. I cannot figure out how to get pictures displayed the way I want them)…

The first two were taken in 1996 or 1997 on a disposable 35mm camera. The latte one was the first camera phone photo I took! The next two were taken in March with a disposable 35mm camera & the two after that were taken in March with my camera phone. The last three were taken in June with my Canon Powershot.

Thanks for reading my lengthy post. 🙂


Where have I been?

So I haven’t visited my blog in months…. bad, bad me! I have been pretty sick. Well, I still am, but I wanted to try to get back at it. I have such high expectations for myself & when I can’t follow through I tend to hide my head in the sand. It’s something I have struggled with since I was a little girl. I am feeling “out of sorts” today. Lately really. I was busily working on a new story & for some reason I could care less about it now. It makes me sad. I know these feelings will pass, but I really hate it when they have settled in for a bit. Grrr!

I discovered digital scrapbooking this summer. This month actually. Oh my goodness! It’s going to be one more dangerous obsession! 😀 Paper products make me wish I was a billionaire! I actually started a few layouts & though they are pretty simple, I am happy how they are turning out. My mom & I spent over an hour last night working on a layout. It was nice to do something fun together. I have been having a blast checking out the different sites & drooling over all of the things I can’t afford.

There is so much to update, but I am going to take it slow. I am hoping once autumn rolls around my battle with dehydration will end. I know so many people love, love, love summer & I do not begrudge them that at all, but I was never a big fan before. Now that it brings with it chronic dehydration, I can honestly say that I hate it. I am sick of being sicker than I even was before. OK, rant over.

Be back soon, hopefully with pictures! 😀